We all suffer depression, some more than others, but I think everybody at times gets depressed. I am taken back to a time in my life, when I was at one of my darkest moments. I don’t know why I was so depressed, my life was going good, but I could not seem to shake the devil telling me I would never amount to a hill of snuff. I was laying in my bed, thinking of suicide, telling myself that everybody would be better off if I was not in their lives. Instead of getting up and acting on those evil thoughts, I decided to pray. It was a simple prayer. I did not thank the Lord for anything, nor did I ask for forgiveness. A very informal prayer that simply consisted of me asking God to send an angel to comfort me. At that moment, I realized the power of prayer. I instantly had this overwhelming feeling of peace, that I was loved, that everything was going to be ok. It was as if God had sent me every angel at his disposal to let me know that I mattered.
I am not a scriptorian by any stretch of the word, and I am certainly no expert on prayer. But what I found that day, that I believe to be true, is that God is very aware of us, he knows when we truly need something. I believe that when we are that low in life, that our prayers are as humble as they can be. And this is why I believe the Lord answered my prayers so quickly. I have had many prayers that were answered, but none instantly. It was the most amazing experience I have ever felt.
Sometimes our prayers seem to go unanswered, only to have better opportunity arise later on. Other times they are answered in a different way than we were expecting. Trust that God knows what is best for you, if your prayers are not being answered, trust that God has a good reason, one that you might never understand. He knows what we want and need, and is happy to provide for us. If you are struggling with addiction never stop praying that you can overcome it. Sometimes we need to keep asking for help, be persistent. And please, if you are struggling with depression, pray. When you are at that point, when you feel that no life is better than the life you have, pray for comfort, pray for a different mindset, pray for anything that is going to make that devil in your mind disappear, what do you have to lose?
Prayer is a great tool and a way to connect with God, but I ask that if you are struggling with thoughts of suicide, call the national suicide prevention lifeline at 800-273-8255. Just be sure to pray, the voice on the other end might just be your answer.